Hello world.
I have been thinking to make a blog about my feelings and life, boring as it sounds but this is not going to be anyone's entertainment site (sorry). This is for me, to grow myself and be stronger in this boring life.
First I'm gonna tell something about myself so it's always easier to open up to this awesome big internet world. So.. My name is Iiris and I'm 20 years old well almost 21 in 5 months. I study International Business in Finland. I started to study it because of my exboyfriend didn't want me to go follow my dreams to southern Finland so I'm stuck here with my dreams dying in my head. I wanted to become fashion desinger (corny isn't it) but on my vocational school( yes I don't go to high school) days when I was studying cloth making becoming desinger was always that dream. I htink it was dream to all those people who studied there. But don't get me wrong I like to live here where I am at the moment (sometimes) but International Business is soo boring and I can't express myself at all. It makes me sad sometimes to just sit there and listen teacher and do nothing.
At the moment I'm trying to get a summer job but it seems impossible for me. It makes me think that what is wrong with me that they don't want me? Or maybe I just suck at writing resemee and cv or that I don't have cool work experiences OR is it because I don't speak swedish. Yeah I forgot to tell that I live in swedish speaking area and here 60% of population people speak swedish. Kind of sucks I fell that I'm total dork from deep deep forest(which I'm actually from) and I have never heard of Swedish. But yea back to job thing, I even tried to get all the cleaning jobs what you could get. No calls nothing. I even applyed to one shop which in I worked in different city but still they send no thank you we don't want you. Well thanks a lot. So, now I'm trying to get money from Social Services and I can get maybe 1000e per month if I'm lucky and push them enough.
"Our greatest weakness is lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time" Thomas A. Edison
I think this is enough for today and tomorrow I will continue writing(crying) about my life more. And if somebody really reads this I'm gonna apologize for my English but come on it's not my native language. But writing in Finnish wouldn't feel so right for me.
So good night nice blogger and see you.
